Sometimes when I'm alone, I stare back into my chaotic past. In silence, I reminisce the options that I had, wondering if I had chosen the other, would I be better than the way I am right now.
Some friends told me that I am lucky, and how they are envious of my accomplishments that I am able to change from what I was.
In truth, they don't really know of what I've been through; the anger, the grief, the feeling of incapable of anything, the utter disappointment.
Not that I'm ungrateful for what I have now, It's just that knowing that something that you wanted most, is like trying to grasp the heavens, a futile attempt.
And this void inside me, is growing into an abyss.
Maybe it was meant to be that way..
2 comments:
*wonder* :P
huhu..don't dwell too much on the past you said..there's still a long path ahead..when it comes..it comes..perhaps you should learn to open your heart a bit more..
open heart and open mind are two different things ya know..
atashi merepek je..u know me well..
wish you'll have your rainbow soon.. ;)
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