Showing posts with label about me. Show all posts
Showing posts with label about me. Show all posts

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

2011 in review.

2011 is closing its curtains. A lot of events occurred that brought major changes in my life's course.

To summarize some of the memorable stuffs:

  • Left a huge nonsensically chaotic corporate organization after a heated argument with a moronic asshole manager. XD
  • Went on a trip to Indonesia, sightseeing and attending my sister's wedding reception ceremony. :)
  • Joined an organization that is also dysfunctional but bearable due to the super flexible hours and remote working ability. :|
  • My team lead resigned. Major demoralization. :(
  • Went on a family trip to Cameron Highlands, BBQ and sightseeing. :)
  • Bought a Playstation 3. Yeah, I'm so outdated. :)
  • Bought a used Playstation Portable and gave it to my brother as his birthday present. :)
  • Bought a new mountain bike - Scott Scale 60 2011. :)
  • Bought a foldable bike - Dahon Vitesse P18 2011 and started cycling to work. :)
  • Partnered with some good friends (my ex-team lead) to start up our own company. :)
  • Ex team lead in Patimas joined the dysfunctional organization, but only lasted 3 weeks before resigning. Another major demoralization. :(
  • Influenced someone to buy a foldable bike too. >XD
  • Opening myself up by joining the cycling community. :)
  • I was on TV! (although just interframing) XD
  • Bought another Playstation Portable and gave it to my nephew for his UPSRA exam result. :)

Things to achieve in first few months of 2012:

  • Quit the dysfunctional organization.
  • Get something really rolling for my company.
  • More community service perhaps?
Out of ideas. To be added more later. 



Monday, March 7, 2011

3 weeks to freedom.

     My resignation took effect on 28th of February 2011. More like resignation email actually since this company is so advanced and did not require printed materials. There was silence in exception for the email I received back from the Human Resources department to confirm that they've received my notice. I'm not keeping it secret to people who I consider as friends. Most others did not know yet but I don't care. They don't matter much to me.

     It became my resolution ever since my new manager 'challenged' me to resign about four weeks ago. The domain side complained that my team is not giving our full dedication and said that we did not deliver anything. My team leader is a spineless weakling who can't even stand on his own, always obeying the commands even though it's absurd. My integrity was questioned again and this enraged me. It was unfortunate that I've been sick a lot at the end of 2010 and early 2011 with the kidney stones and the food poisoning. Yet, I was labeled of being 'sick' just to avoid work. When I challenged them back about the medical claims I made because I've maxed out the specialist clinic allocation and whether they wanted me to bring my medical records, silence reigns. I've worked my ass from daylight to the wee hours of the morning just to reach the absurd deadline. I've been denied training on the platform just because I can't attend the full two weeks due to my appointment with my doctor. I've been working hard just to understand the uber annoyingly complex platform but I've received no gratitude for my work. Heck, originally, I was the only developer working on the stupid module. Even after another offered to help, we still couldn't finish the damn thing on time as the time given was ridiculous.

     I've truly had enough. I'm glad that I've made the decision. I'm buying myself out. My time is too precious to waste on things that I don't even like doing.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Silver linings..

This is my 1st post in 2010.

Nothing much happening except for the increasing level of stress and frustration. Job related especially. A hell lot of things happening currently that made me feel this way. I really hate changes or introduction of new stuffs that is required to be in the delivery of the product at the last minute. They should know that it is a very bad practice to do so as it causes unrest among those whose work depends on each other.

Another issue is if you are the one that worked on that particular task that introduced a new problem. You should be the one responsible to fix it. You are not supposed to pass your own mess to another and then keep on asking the person to settle it as soon as possible. Especially if the thing that you call working piece of code can be classified as not just spaghetti, but with shitballs too. Yeah you claim that it has all that nice pluggable features yada yada blah blah blah so on and so forth but does it ever crossed your mind that the thing should be simple and just get the job done? Have you ever heard of the principle of YAGNI?(You Ain't Gonna Need It). It's pointless to OVER ENGINEER something that could be done with just something simple. Be pragmatic about it please.

Anyway, rantings aside, I've decided I should leave soon. Sent my details to a friend and hope that his company will get back to me ASAP. They're working on web and enterprise applications development for a well known organization which sounds very interesting (Of course as my interest area is in the web and enterprise applications). Just hope that they wont suddenly start developing desktop applications as this is the thing that drives me crazy everyday. The most appealing part is that the work hours is super flexible. I just need to be at the office or site if there is a meeting or getting new task or delivering completed task. That way, I can work from anywhere I want. All these while I imagined myself working at my own pace and at any place that I wanted to. Starbucks?Coffeebean? McD? or just anywhere with an internet connection and a conducive environment. Mobile office for the win! As long as I can deliver, they promised they wont bother. Who needs Annual Leaves that way? Sounds really cool. But he mentioned that the other benefits that the company offer are sucky especially on the health and hospitalization coverage.

News flash! got a message in Facebook from my ex-supervisor during my industrial training at Celcom. He got one position for a System Analyst. We chatted a bit a few hours ago and he explained the responsibilities of the position. The person who holds the post shall be involved in the design of the system but NOT involved in the actual development? From the way it sounds, it's more like being a Product Owner to me. That would be cool. And he said that my expected remuneration is quite okay. The downside is, from past experience, commuting to work is horrible and work time is not that flexible. And I hope that if I ever offered the position and decided to take it, will it ever have something to do with coding? If not, that I might miss the joy of code writing.

Kinda confused on these two places. Don't really know what I want now. But anyhow, I'm grateful and happy. It's true then that reward came to those who persevere and patient.


Tuesday, March 17, 2009

In the depths of despair

Sometimes when I'm alone, I stare back into my chaotic past. In silence, I reminisce the options that I had, wondering if I had chosen the other, would I be better than the way I am right now.

Some friends told me that I am lucky, and how they are envious of my accomplishments that I am able to change from what I was.

In truth, they don't really know of what I've been through; the anger, the grief, the feeling of incapable of anything, the utter disappointment.

Not that I'm ungrateful for what I have now, It's just that knowing that something that you wanted most, is like trying to grasp the heavens, a futile attempt.

And this void inside me, is growing into an abyss.

Maybe it was meant to be that way..

Friday, March 6, 2009

feeling adventurous

months ago after the crazy level 4 (according to the guide) white water rafting in Sg Selangor, I promised myself not to get into any kind of extreme sports ever again.

I don't really know how to swim except on how stay afloat in the water.

But somehow, I don't know why, I got myself hanging and gliding from platform to platform 17meters from the ground for 1km. Google for skytrex adventures if you wanna see some pics and get yourself the idea of the height and what the challenges looks like.

And I am an Acrophobic.

Nonetheless, the experience is exhilarating. each time I look back at the platforms that I jumped from, I just can't believe that I did it. Effin' awesomeness.

And for reasons I also don't know why, I am strongly attracted to the idea of bike trekking. Seems like it's really fun. It's been years since my last bike ride. Now, I found myself looking for a good mountain bike but sadistically, the price for a good mountain bike is bloody expensive. 11 grand for a bike? waddaeff??!! oh well, no bike trekking so soon I guess. Well, can't wait to get my bike soon so because Kiara bike trail is next on my list.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Tag?

What is this tag thing? hmm..6 of my habits/things? oh well, what the heck..

1: I can't live without either the computer or the internet.
2: I hate it when people disturbs me while I'm working on something.
3: I'm a hardcore gamer. Need it to de-stress myself.
4: I like to observe people's behavior and I don't talk much unless with close friends.
5: I love listening to retro music. Today's music kinda sucked and most of the lyrics are pointless that they redefined retardedness down to an indescribable level.
6: I depend on water, don't eat much and no seafood for me. I can live without really eating for days.

okay, that's all..
I'm not going to tag anyone because I don't see the real point of doing this other than answering the questions. hahaha.

Monday, January 5, 2009

New year

I guess it's still not too late for me to wish Happy New Year to everyone.

I'm in the new office right now, relaxing after cramming some server configuration stuff inside my head. New year, new job, new life perspective and hope everything will be great for the year 2009.

2008 was good but not so great. It's been a rough year especially in the mid towards the end. Got caught in a serious personal issue that turned me upside down (don't ask and don't bother looking for it in this blog coz I never intent to write about it anyway) It's a new year by the way. What's done is done. Let bygone be bygones they say. I've recovered although not completely.

As it was before, I'm not going to make any new year resolutions as I already have my targets to achieve in check all the time. Having a target to achieve is essential to keep on advancing in this life and from my own experience, new year resolutions are unlikely to be fulfilled as we always have a change of mind and not to mention that shit always happens no matter how well prepared we are. I believe that we have to adapt to the situation no matter how hard it is and what is coming towards us.

Happy, sad, anger. Those are the things that made this life colorful and wonderful. A painting wouldn't look real if there is only bright and cheerful colors. Too much dark colors will only make it too sad and gloomy. This painting called "Life", should be a mixture of all the colors. That's what makes it beautiful and complete.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Resigning..again!

As per title, I resigned again. Why shouldn't I? I got a far more better offer than what I'm having here in the current company. But wait, before you start to think that I'm only attracted to the salary package, no, that's not the reason why.

Frankly, here's why:

1. I'm sick of being overloaded with work.
2. I'm sick of being coerced in to do overtimes.
3. I'm sick of being overloaded with more work in spite of the overtime.
4. I'm sick of being assigned assignments with ridiculous deadlines.
5. I'm sick of being forced to work when I'm already at my limits for the day.
6. I' sick of being unable to enjoy myself while I'm doing my job.
7. I'm sick of the feeling of starting to hate my job because of all the above.

for 1 to 4, the reasons are pretty much straight forward.

The reason for #5 is, for me, developing a software is a work of art. Actually, there are many ways to design a code for something and seriously for me, the design should be elegant, not just at the architecture, but by the structures of the code itself. That way, it'll be easier and less work to refactor (if there is any reasons at all to refactor it). To be creative, you can't push yourself too much, creativity can't be forced.

#6, I love designing and developing software. But pushing it when I'm at my limits is seriously causing it to be not fun anymore.

#7, For me, this is not just a job. It is my chosen career path and this is the best thing that I can do (other than playing computer games, how I wish Malaysia have lots of game developing companies so that I can sign up as a playtester LOL).

I'll be joining a new company really soon. I was again, offered immediately on the spot. The interview took place in a hotel next to KLCC. No, I'm not applying to be a hotel employee. It was a walk-in interview so there was a lot of people trying their luck (including me) and I'm one of those lucky people who got offered.

It was an interesting experience, really. I thought I was late as the schedule should be at 10am but thanks to KL's traffic, leaving as early as 9 didn't help much either. Arrived there, climbed the escalator to the 2nd level and getting confused finding the venue of the room as at that time nearly all the suites there are having some kind of function. Managed to find the room after a quick sweep on the level and I was greeted by a lady who asked me if I am to attend the interview and I just said yes. She asked me to fill in my contact in some kind of guest book and after that, she handed me a set of questions, much of it are fairly easy (for me) and I was given 20minutes to answer those questions which I did in about 15 minutes.

Later, she asked me to fill in my current occupation details and after waiting quite a while, an Englishman came looking for me (heard he mentioned my name,the lady there pointed to me and he seems quite surprised and said with a deep British accent "that fine gentleman over there?" ). He introduced himself as the Operations Director for the company and told me that the guy who will interview me later reports to him and that if I really can impress that guy, I'll definitely get the job. He also told me that the reason that he came looking for me was because of the results of the test I took before was way above the average marks and I finished it in a short time. LOL. He was really impressed and the only obstacle left is for me to impress the interviewer, who actually is the Director of the Software R&D department. Kind of a bit weird as I've already impressed the interviewer's boss LOL.

I later then learned that the company is considered a huge company with worldwide operations. Those who're in the banking business (especially credit division) would've heard of this company. And, I've also learned that the office that I'll be working in is really extraordinary and I really mean that (that guy showed me the actual pictures of the office interior).

About the interview, yeah this one is quite tough. The guy who interviewed me really dived in depth on the technical side of the job. I can say I was lucky to impress that guy (lucky that I've also read a lot on software architectures too). For the salary, I didn't asked much. Only an increment of RM200 to compensate my fuel consumption to commute to the office. But the guy who was looking for me earlier, he didn't agree. At first I thought that this is bad news. But instead, it was great news. He gave me a whopping increment and on top of that, I'll be getting travel allowances. The total is far more than what I've imagine I could ever get. I was speechless. I went back home, a super excited extremely happy guy.

And oh,working hours is 9.00am to 5.30pm, Monday to Friday. Health and dental coverage for me and my family (yeah, you read that right. family included!). 15 days annual leave, 18 days sick leave and 5 days study leave. Monthly recreational activities and lots more. What else could I ask for?

So that's all about my latest adventures, greatest thanks to almighty God, for all His blessings onto me.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

after a week of being jobless

seriously relieved at the beginning but seriously bored right now. LOL.
My daily activity most of the time is laying on my bed and sometimes on my computer chair for a while to select the next movie or tv series I wanted to watch or checking my downloads. believe it or not, in just a week, I've downloaded a whopping total of 95GBs of movies and tv series.

Now my body clock's gone haywire due to my movie and tv series marathon sessions. But tomorrow's gonna change. I'm going to hunt for my Raya clothes and check Midvalley's MPH or KLCC's Kinokuniya for a book that I've been hunting for so long. And maybe after that I'll take a tour back to MMU to meet Mat Jep as he told me that he have a freelance job and he want me in. At last! a freelance job after several months of zero challenge. Hopefully this will get me back in the freelance business.

Hmm. I wonder what color should I get for my Baju Melayu. Perhaps, gray like my new car?ah..forgot to mention I got my car last Saturday. My sales agent called me at 930am and I only had like 2 hours of sleep. Meon was at my house that night and we were playing DOOM 3 just to stay awake for the sahur with Salleh,FAB,Nisya and Dibot at Old Town White Coffee in Cheras. Spent the whole morning to afternoon at the tint shop to get my car tinted with security tints and to make things worse, I planned to go Iftar with my schoolmates later that eve. It was fun but I already felt like a zombie that time. LOL. After the Iftar my plan was to go back home and sleep while Hilmy, Apez and Meon rejoin the guys back at Ampang Park for the karaoke session but suddenly the three had a change of mind an instead I was obliged to follow them for a drink at Uptown Damansara. I slept until the afternoon next day (of course have to wake up for Subuh prayers and the sahur with my parents).

I need some sleep. My conciousness fading. so I'm signing off.

Saturday, September 13, 2008

a peek into my personality.

I've been doing some personality test available on the net lately. Took a lot of test on this and that but the ones that really fits me are the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator (MBTI) and the Carl Gustav's Jung tests.

all the tests results in me being an INTP.INTP stands for:

Introverted
iNtuitive
Thinking
Perceiving

According to Carl Gustav Jung, my personality can be classified as:

Dominant : introverted thinking
Auxiliary : extroverted intuition
Tertiary : introverted sensing
Inferior : extroverted feeling

based on the result description of my profile, no wonder I am the best person to do technical and R&D stuffs for my career. It suits me very well and i do very well in it.

I do recall some people told me that I am miserable. I LOLed hard on that. What's wrong with preferring to be alone and close only with people that I choose to be close to? I am much more happy that way and to me, you are the one who is miserable for not being able to get my attention. I don't need to get the whole world if I can get satisfaction just from tiny fraction of it and to me, that is what I call being independent and free. You guys are just too stupid and ignorant to realize how precious that is to me. That is the ultimate answer why I don't really need people like you and to me, you people are the ones who are miserable and pathetic anal-retentive attention whores.

So read up before calling miserable on someone you don't really know.

http://www.personalitypage.com/INTP.html
http://www.geocities.com/lifexplore/intp.htm
http://similarminds.com/jung/intp.html
http://www.intp.org/intprofile.html