pening lagi..

I was really set look for another job in the next 2 months when today, my main boss came over my table, grab a chair and sat next to me.It was kinda weird as it was the first time. He asked me about the task he gave to me two weeks ago which I misunderstood of what he really wants. It was really simple and I thought that he wanted to see a working prototype. LOL.

Well, he was really satisfied to see that I actually did more than what he expected which is just the documentation. After he finished explaining the additional requirements, he told me of his plans for me.

He wanted to create a special division which consists of only me and my 2nd boss, Anselm to handle the modernization of the company's flagship product, Equity Online. My task is to implement web services and ajaxify the application where it is possible to meet the requirements to be Web 2.0 / SOA ready.


Darn, now I'm trapped with this guilty feelings again. As if my private life matter isn't enough.I'm in a dilemma.

Anyway, I found it funny that people keep on telling that it's hard to get a job in the IT field. I found through my experience that it was in the contrary. As I kept on receiving job offers from companies whether local or MNCs. One even called me all the way from Australia asking me if I'm interested to work at his place (which I would love to but then, I have to look after my ageing parents).

And to add more to my problems, I have a strong feeling to continue my studies to a further level. But right now my income doesn't really allow me to do so. I am really interested to get a master's degree in Software Engineering or maybe do a research on Distributed / Parallel Computing which is my actual main job here in this company (but sadly it was put on hold by MIMOS). Any financtial institution out there want to offer sponsorship for my studies?LOL.

Time's wasting..got to go..my moonlighting client is waiting at a mamak restaurant.

Torn within..

aku tak mahu menjadi lalang..
mudah condong ditiup bayu..

aku tak mahu menjadi pantai..
mudah berubah dihempas ombak..

tapi apa daya ku..

kelembutan sang bayu mempersona..
hempasan sang ombak manja meruntun jiwa..
dan aku..hanyut dibuai keindahan..
yg pernah hilang satu ketika..
sekonyong timbul kembali..
dengan munculnya sang dewi..
memarakkan semula bara yg hampir hilang bahangnya..

maafkan daku..

Vertigo

2 songs that was dedicated to me from someone that I thought was long gone and reappeared suddenly a few weeks ago after about 9 years..and with her appearance, she gave me a seriously mixed and messed up feelings...not to mention the shivers she sent down my spine...

KRU - Untukmu

Angin bayu membawa diriku
Sepintas lalu ku terkenangkanmu
Memori silam meresap malam
Kenangan bersama tersimpan selamanya

Walaupun kau pergi
Jauh dari diri ini
Cintaku masih bersemadi di hati
Keyakinan kita kan kembali
Menghidupkan semula
Janji bara cinta
Kita bersama mengejar mimpi
Terpisah sementara ku pasti
Suatu hari nanti
Cinta kita bersemi
Kembali menerangi
Mekar di taman hati
Walaupun jauh pandangan mata
Ku yakin kau kan tetap setia
Begitulah ku jua
Keikhlasan dijiwa
Dan cintaku hanyalah
Untukmu

Saban hari diri ku menunggu
Khabar berita darimu di sana
Gerimis senja kembali reda
Kerinduan di jiwa
Kau jadi penawar

Rinduku padamu
Tak dapat ku terkata
Setiap saat waktu
Bagai terlalu lama
Bila kita kembali bersama
Hiduplah semula
Janji bara cinta

Mimpi yang dikejar
Telah pun menjadi nyata..



Faizal Tahir - Aku Punya Kamu

Saat kau tersenyum
Saat itu kau memberi
Saat ku rasa bahgia

Selama ku tersenyum
Selama itu ku memberi
Selama yang kamu di sini

Namun ku bicara hanya pada
Bulan dan suria tak ku punya cara
Untuk menyatakan cinta

Dan kamu hanyalah satu
Ku mahu ada kamu saja
Bisaku menunggumu
Selamanya aku milikmu
Takkan pernah lelahku menunggu
Hingga aku punya kamu

Sesaat kau tiada
Saat itu yang ku rasa
Saat hidupku terlena

Selama yang kau ada
Selama itu ku yang rasa
Selama hidupku bahagia

Namun ku bicara hanya pada
Bulan dan suria tak ku punya cara
Untuk menyatakan cinta

Dan kamu hanyalah satu
Ku mahu ada kamu saja
Bisaku menunggumu
Selamanya aku milik mu
Takkan pernah lelahku menunggu
Hingga aku punya kamu

Selama yang pernah
Ku merasa belum ada rasa yang ku rasa ini
Fahamilah cinta ku lebih dari cinta
Tiada mungkin aku kan teruja
Andai bukan kamu yang di hadapanku
Bisaku buktikan pada kamu

Yang kamu hanyalah satu
Dan tak pernah lelah ku menunggumu
Hingga aku punya kamu
Selamanya
Aku milikmu
Takkan pernah lelah ku menunggu
Hingga punya kamu

The meeting with the dentist

After so many years, today, I visited the dentist. All because of the gap in my last molar tooth in the left side of the lower jaw. Actually, the hole was really small but noticeable. This was 3 years ago. I didn't do anything as it didn't bother me much. Until quarter of the chewing surface caved in last Saturday while I was eating kerepek. Haha. Imagine that suddenly while chewing the kerepek, there was a loud cracking sound and suddenly you find yourself biting on a very hard thing. Spit it out and found a white piece that have a smooth surface on one side and rough on the other side. How come a kerepek be something like that? and to your horror, you noticed that something's wrong and found that white thing was part of your teeth. Haha.

So when i look into the mirror at that particular tooth, I was horrified to see that it left a
deep hole. And thus, the meeting with the dentist today. Luckily it still can be rescued by a simple filling procedure. What a relief! I was worried that I need to undergo the Root Canal Therapy as I don't want it to be extracted (i dont want to wear dentures!!). Not to forget that the therapy alone (i think it should be called surgery) can cost up to rm800 minus other charges/procedures.

I always hear people say that if a tooth is decaying, other teeth will be affected. Luckily, the dentist told me that all my other tooth have no problem at all. Haha.
Lesson learned: If you noticed even a small hole in your tooth, consult your dentist immediately.

A poem by Abu Nawas - Al-I'tiraf (Acknowledgement)

God, I don't deserve your paradise,
but I can't withstand your hellfire,
so allow me to repent and forgive my sins,
as You are the Forgiver of Sins.

My sins is as much as the sands at the beach,
so allow me to repent oh He Who Have All The Greatness
my lifetime decreases each and everyday,
but my sins increases, I can't help it

God, this sinful servant of Yours comes to face You
Indeed I have sinned and I ask of You,
If you forgive indeed You are the Forgiver of Sins,
but if You refuse, to whom should we pray to other than You.

FITNA: the idiocy of Geert Wilders

I've just finished watching FITNA, the controversial short Islamophobic movie made by Geert Wilders, the Dutch politician who is so stupid that it is impossible to describe in words on how idiot he is. Why? well, yes the verses that he took from the Quran did exist but he purposely didn't take the whole context of what is the real meaning of the verse. It's like you suddenly take a sentence from a middle of a story without really stating on what really happened in the story.

Want some proof? Ok..

the first verse that the idiot Wilders took: Surah 8 (Al-Anfaal - The Spoils of war), verse 60:
Against them make ready your strength to the utmost of your power, including steeds of war, to strike terror into (the hearts of) the enemies, of Allah and your enemies, and others besides, whom ye may not know, but whom Allah doth know. Whatever ye shall spend in the cause of Allah, shall be repaid unto you, and ye shall not be treated unjustly.

ooh...scary isn't it?..Islam teaches no mercy and savagery..but wait..here's the following verses of the same surah:

But if the enemy incline towards peace, do thou (also) incline towards peace, and trust in Allah. for He is One that heareth and knoweth (all things).(61)

Should they intend to deceive thee,- verily Allah sufficeth thee: He it is That hath strengthened thee with His aid and with (the company of) the Believers;(62)

And (moreover) He hath put affection between their hearts: not if thou hadst spent all that is in the earth, couldst thou have produced that affection, but Allah hath done it: for He is Exalted in might, Wise.(63)

well, that's it for the first verse Wilders misrepresent. Here's the second verse that he took from the Quran: (An-Nisa' - Women) verse 56:
Those who reject our Signs, We shall soon cast into the Fire: as often as their skins are roasted through, We shall change them for fresh skins, that they may taste the penalty: for Allah is Exalted in Power, Wise.

again..scary..but have a look at the whole story:

Or do they envy mankind for what Allah hath given them of his bounty? but We had already given the people of Abraham the Book and Wisdom, and conferred upon them a great kingdom.(54)

Some of them believed, and some of them averted their faces from him: And enough is Hell for a burning fire.(55)

Those who reject our Signs, We shall soon cast into the Fire: as often as their skins are roasted through, We shall change them for fresh skins, that they may taste the penalty: for Allah is Exalted in Power, Wise.(56)

But those who believe and do deeds of righteousness, We shall soon admit to Gardens, with rivers flowing beneath,- their eternal home: Therein shall they have companions pure and holy: We shall admit them to shades, cool and ever deepening.(57)

unless you're really stupid and blind, you'll see that the 'We' in the verses refers to God Himself. Not us the puny humans that He created with His Greatness. Ok, now on to the third verse that the idiot quote: surah 47, verse 4 (Muhammad:4):

Therefore, when ye meet the Unbelievers (in fight), smite at their necks; At length, when ye have thoroughly subdued them, bind a bond firmly (on them): thereafter (is the time for) either generosity or ransom: Until the war lays down its burdens. Thus (are ye commanded): but if it had been Allah.s Will, He could certainly have exacted retribution from them (Himself); but (He lets you fight) in order to test you, some with others. But those who are slain in the Way of Allah,- He will never let their deeds be lost.

Look carefully at the whole context of the verse. Wilders only took a part of it which proves the weakness in his argument. Why didn't he took the whole verse and not just partial?The only explanation is, look at the whole verse and try to understand it.

Therefore, when ye meet the Unbelievers in a battle, smite at their necks; At length, when ye have thoroughly subdued them, bind a bond firmly (on them): thereafter (is the time for) either generosity or ransom until the war lays down its burdens. Thus (are ye commanded): but if it had been Allah.s Will, He could certainly have exacted retribution from them (Himself); but (He lets you fight) in order to test you, some with others. But those who are slain in the Way of Allah,- He will never let their deeds be lost.

So, did the Quran told us to keep no prisoners, slaughter them and chop off their limbs like animals at the slaghterhouses?NO!..but the Quran told us to be generous or take ransom of them until the war finally ends.

now on the next verse that Wilders the mad took from the Quran in his losing effort to prove that He's right. Surah 4, (An-Nisa'- Women) verse 89:

They but wish that ye should reject Faith, as they do, and thus be on the same footing (as they): But take not friends from their ranks until they flee in the way of Allah (From what is forbidden). But if they turn renegades, seize them and slay them wherever ye find them; and (in any case) take no friends or helpers from their ranks;-

Just as the first verse he took, here's the following verse of it:

Except those who join a group between whom and you there is a treaty (of peace), or those who approach you with hearts restraining them from fighting you as well as fighting their own people. If Allah had pleased, He could have given them power over you, and they would have fought you: Therefore if they withdraw from you but fight you not, and (instead) send you (Guarantees of) peace, then Allah Hath opened no way for you (to war against them).(90)

LOL..Wilders got pwned again..now the last verse, back to the 8th surah (Al-Anfaal - The spoils of war) verse 39:
And fight them on until there is no more tumult or oppression, and there prevail justice and faith in Allah altogether and everywhere; but if they cease, verily Allah doth see all that they do.

if you look back at Wilder's translation, I'd say he purposely left a 'tiny' bit of translation and twisted the trasnlation of that particular verse. Here's his idiotic version of translation:

Fight them until there is no dissension and the religion is entirely Allah's.

He again purposely took the verse partially. it's already very clear. He only wants to make people who are arabic illiterate to believe and trust in his weak agenda that Islam equals terror.
*yawn*...another futile attempt..only idiots and blind would really believe on his agenda.

Bear in mind that the Quran is not just a text of stories like those storybooks. But the Quran is written in the form of poetry.You can't just take a verse from a poem to understand the whole meaning and what the poem is all about. You have to read and understand the whole poem itself.

well..Geert Wilders, you phailed miserably..anyway, better luck next time..but I doubt that will happen as God Himself promised that there is no way the Quran can be misrepresented as it is His words Himself.

Headhunted!

I don't know why, but for the past 2 weeks, I've been receiving calls and sms mesages from people inviting me to apply for positions at their company. It felt kinda weird but great. LOL. Don't know how they got my contact number (didn't bother to ask but 2 of them actually come from jobstreet.com) . 1 from a local finance institute, 1 from a local startup and another 3 came from multinational companies. All of them offering salary far higher than my current salary and my expected salary by the time I want to leave the company.

Now, I'm in such a dilemma.
Should I go, or should I stay? I have made great friends here, have a lot of good time chatting during lunch (I think it's not just during lunch, but nearly the whole office hours..haha) and I planned to stay at least for a year here but these offers are really tempting and the location are also nearer to my current residency. Not to mention that I can actually get to buy a house and my own car faster than what I've planned. They even offered to 'buy' me out from my current workplace if I fulfill their requirements in the interview. Hmm.. I think I need to consult with my family about this.

But still the question is, how did they get my contact number?Did my freelancing activities actually made me popular?haha..Maybe I should really setup my own IT company after this. LOL.

Anyway, a lot of thanks and praise be to the Almighty for these blessings that I've been receiving. I'm such a happy guy.. =)